I came down with a cold on Friday. I probably ran into someone with the bug, who sneezed on me, touched me after coughing on their hand. I spent the next two days drinking tea, juices, yet still riding my little motorcycle through the city fog, up and down hilly streets bouncing the little blue bike over potholes, rails in the asphalt, zipping around manhole covers and obscurities unexpected. Stop-go-stop-go.
Sold Edgar, haven't finalized the deal yet, but won't ride him again. It makes me edge to the far end of my seat, hoping that the guy in Napa has time this week to figure them out, straighten all bent tubes, bits, pieces and make it solid again. Then we'll piece the RocketDog together again, and I'll be powered on the road in shining felicity.
Hope I feel better, much better, clear and sneeze-free, before boarding the plane Friday morning. Current weather: 44˚ and raining. I think it's incredibly hilarious that for my cousin's Bar Mitzvah we're staying at "Eden Theological Seminary is called by Jesus Christ to be a school of the church. Eden is called to strengthen and support the life and mission of the church by educating pastors and teachers, enlivening critical reflection on faith, and encouraging Christian discipleship." Like a good Jewish mother she's having friends and family stay nearby at the Seminary, while we celebrate the good Jewish kid entering into adulthood... Makes me laugh.
Anyway it'll be a good time seeing my drugged up post-surgery mama, and meeting the new cousin's who're probably so cute and girly, and seeing the boyz get bigger.
Bah.
25 October 2006
14 October 2006
doing nothing
Although this is normally a pleasant influence, producing good times and pleasant leisure, under some circumstances it can be a period of testing to see if relationships are on a sound footing. The test may consist of situations that will determine your ability to maintain your individuality within your important relationships. This influence produces a tendency to compromise rather than to stand up for your beliefs and rights. Someone may take advantage of your good nature at this time, which is not a tremendous danger, but something to keep in mind when dealing with people today. At this time your energies are rather low, not so that you feel sick, but so that you feel like doing nothing. Your work may not be done carefully because your heart is not really in it.
Hm. Horoscope has it right today. My activities have extended to: laying around on the couch. Ordering mate from a website. Uploading a couple lame photos to tmbo. Doing dishes. Doing laundry. Removing windshield from Edgar. Buying fruit, getting medicine, razors and eggs, bread and ice cream. Now, lazing around because nothing seems exciting or worthy of my effort... gawd! Feels go to be down and out.
Munching: spicy hummus with wasa crackers, sipping on mate
Listening to: nothing because nothing sounds good.
Current mood: bleh.
Hm. Horoscope has it right today. My activities have extended to: laying around on the couch. Ordering mate from a website. Uploading a couple lame photos to tmbo. Doing dishes. Doing laundry. Removing windshield from Edgar. Buying fruit, getting medicine, razors and eggs, bread and ice cream. Now, lazing around because nothing seems exciting or worthy of my effort... gawd! Feels go to be down and out.
Munching: spicy hummus with wasa crackers, sipping on mate
Listening to: nothing because nothing sounds good.
Current mood: bleh.
10 October 2006
untitled.
Something inside me has been screaming and I don't know how to shut it up. Ever since the trip to Oklahoma and found myself uncomfortably ill a few weeks ago, things have been practically impossible to get back to somewhere clear. If it's not one thing about my body, it's another, and more vitamins and less sleep and more false stimulation and just as much mind-blowing experience have gotten me nowhere but even more stressed out, for no reason.
I've been almost uncontrollably bitchy, and breathing deeper makes my gut wrench and hurt even more, when all I want it to do is calm. Even I've been so pissed at everything around me and so pissed off at myself, which pisses me off even more, and makes me just want to tell myself to go away, shut the fuck up, deal with it and take a damn chill pill.
Today I'm on a roller coaster again, freaking out about moving backwards to take a step forwards in my job and not knowing how to start, although somewhere deeper inside I feel confident that I'll learn all I need to know and have a foot ahead in knowing what I do already know, but feel shoved to the wolves anyhow. I feel angry at the people I work with, and know that it's only making it more difficult for them to trust me, and help me, and me to help them is a stretch for my selfish and angry soul. What is going on???
I really enjoyed being around my closest gals this past weekend, and they helped me to see that it is true, that my life is really going somewhere here, that I have a fantastic situation, with my man, my home, my life, that whatever it is that's tearing me apart emotionally is nowhere near where it could be, and I'm doing fine.
So there's nowhere else for me to go but onward and upward, and the evil in me will be tough going, to quench my thirst for life I need to keep up with my needs and desires, and that is to help my guy when he helps me, and put the extra effort out to be the person I want to be, for him and me. There was no reason good enough for me to leave him downstairs with my selfish bitchass upstairs, doing all this work for me, when I fight myself, and lose. Miserably. So I extend my apologies and know that I can be there, and know that just because I'm tired and the thin energy had all gone on a thread, stick to it, and be there. I do want to learn and help, and if his making excuses about little sh*t infuriates me, then why in the world can I justify my excuses and expect them to not infuriate him.
SO I contend to breathe deeper and take care of myself, know that I am loved unconditionally and there is nothing I can do to stop myself from returning the ...favor. It is what it is, and my father my mother my brothers and my love, even if the fortune cookie I keep in my wallet is telling me the truth, there is no way I could ever be alone.
Only four more hours.
I've been almost uncontrollably bitchy, and breathing deeper makes my gut wrench and hurt even more, when all I want it to do is calm. Even I've been so pissed at everything around me and so pissed off at myself, which pisses me off even more, and makes me just want to tell myself to go away, shut the fuck up, deal with it and take a damn chill pill.
Today I'm on a roller coaster again, freaking out about moving backwards to take a step forwards in my job and not knowing how to start, although somewhere deeper inside I feel confident that I'll learn all I need to know and have a foot ahead in knowing what I do already know, but feel shoved to the wolves anyhow. I feel angry at the people I work with, and know that it's only making it more difficult for them to trust me, and help me, and me to help them is a stretch for my selfish and angry soul. What is going on???
I really enjoyed being around my closest gals this past weekend, and they helped me to see that it is true, that my life is really going somewhere here, that I have a fantastic situation, with my man, my home, my life, that whatever it is that's tearing me apart emotionally is nowhere near where it could be, and I'm doing fine.
So there's nowhere else for me to go but onward and upward, and the evil in me will be tough going, to quench my thirst for life I need to keep up with my needs and desires, and that is to help my guy when he helps me, and put the extra effort out to be the person I want to be, for him and me. There was no reason good enough for me to leave him downstairs with my selfish bitchass upstairs, doing all this work for me, when I fight myself, and lose. Miserably. So I extend my apologies and know that I can be there, and know that just because I'm tired and the thin energy had all gone on a thread, stick to it, and be there. I do want to learn and help, and if his making excuses about little sh*t infuriates me, then why in the world can I justify my excuses and expect them to not infuriate him.
SO I contend to breathe deeper and take care of myself, know that I am loved unconditionally and there is nothing I can do to stop myself from returning the ...favor. It is what it is, and my father my mother my brothers and my love, even if the fortune cookie I keep in my wallet is telling me the truth, there is no way I could ever be alone.
Only four more hours.
01 October 2006
So you say it's your birthday?
Well Happy Birthday to ya!!
Today my ol' man is another year older...
Here's some of the same useless facts as applied to the day my love entered upon this mortal coil... It is only a hope that we can share a celebratory treat to commemorate his beginnings...
1 October 1969
Your date of conception was on or about 8 January 1969 which was a Wednesday.
You were born on a Wednesday
under the astrological sign Libra.
Your Life path number is 9.
Life Path Compatibility:
You are most compatible with those with the Life Path numbers 3, 6 & 9.
You should get along well with those with the Life Path numbers 1 & 5.
You may or may not get along well with those with the Life Path numbers 2, 7 & 11.
You are least compatible with those with the Life Path numbers 4, 8 & 22.
The Julian calendar date of your birth is 2440495.5.
The golden number for 1969 is 13.
The epact number for 1969 is 11.
The year 1969 was not a leap year.
Your birthday falls into the Chinese year beginning 2/17/1969 and ending 2/5/1970.
You were born in the Chinese year of the Rooster.
Your Native American Zodiac sign is Raven; your plant is Ivy.
You were born in the Egyptian month of Choiach, the fourth month of the season of Poret (Emergence - Fertile soil).
Your date of birth on the Hebrew calendar is 20 Tishri 5730.
The date of Easter on your birth year was Sunday, 6 April 1969.
The date of Orthodox Easter on your birth year was Sunday, 13 April 1969.
The date of Ash Wednesday (the first day of Lent) on your birth year was Wednesday 19 February 1969.
The date of Whitsun (Pentecost Sunday) in the year of your birth was Sunday 25 May 1969.
The date of Whisuntide in the year of your birth was Sunday 1 June 1969.
The date of Rosh Hashanah in the year of your birth was Saturday, 13 September 1969.
The date of Passover in the year of your birth was Thursday, 3 April 1969.
The date of Mardi Gras on your birth year was Tuesday 18 February 1969.
As of 10/2/2006 11:31:03 PM EDT
You are 37 years old.
You are 444 months old.
You are 1,931 weeks old.
You are 13,515 days old.
You are 324,383 hours old.
You are 19,463,011 minutes old.
You are 1,167,780,663 seconds old.
Celebrities who share your birthday:
Jay Underwood (1968)
Mark McGwire (1963)
Randy Quaid (1950)
Rod Carew (1945)
Stella Stevens (1936)
Julie Andrews (1935)
Richard Harris (1932)
George Peppard (1928)
Tom Bosley (1927)
Jimmy Carter (1924)
James Whitmore (1921)
Walter Matthau (1920)
Vladimir Horowitz (1903)
Top songs of 1969
Aquarius/Let the Sun Shine In by Fifth Dimension
In the Year 2525 by Zager & Evans
Get Back by Beatles (with Billy Preston)
Sugar, Sugar by Archies
Honky Tonk Women by Rolling Stones
Everyday People by Sly & the Family Stone
Dizzy by Tommy Roe
Wedding Bell Blues by Fifth Dimension
I Can't Get Next to You by Temptations
Crimson & Clover by Tommy James & the Shondells
Your age is the equivalent of a dog that is 5.28962818003914 years old. (You're still chasing cats!)
There are 364 days till your next birthday
on which your cake will have 38 candles.
Those 38 candles produce 38 BTUs,
or 9,576 calories of heat (that's only 9.5760 food Calories!) .
You can boil 4.34 US ounces of water with that many candles.
In 1969 there were approximately 3.7 million births in the US.
In 1969 the US population was approximately 179,323,175 people, 50.6 persons per square mile.
In 1969 in the US there were approximately 1,800,000 marriages (9.3%) and 479,000 divorces (2.5%)
In 1969 in the US there were approximately 1,712,000 deaths (9.5 per 1000)
In the US a new person is born approximately every 8 seconds.
In the US one person dies approximately every 12 seconds.
In 1969 the population of Australia was approximately 12,407,217.
In 1969 there were approximately 250,175 births in Australia.
In 1969 in Australia there were approximately 112,470 marriages and 10,930 divorces.
In 1969 in Australia there were approximately 106,496 deaths.
Your birthstone is Tourmaline
The Mystical properties of Tourmaline
Pink Tourmaline promotes female balance and protection. Green Toumaline promotes male balance.
Some lists consider these stones to be your birthstone. (Birthstone lists come from Jewelers, Tibet, Ayurvedic Indian medicine, and other sources)
Opal, Jasper
Your birth tree is
Hazelnut Tree, the Extraordinary
Charming, undemanding, very understanding, knows how to make an impression, active fighter for social cause, popular, moody and capricious lover, honest and tolerant partner, precise sense of judgement.
There are 84 days till Christmas 2006!
There are 97 days till Orthodox Christmas!
The moon's phase on the day you were
born was waning gibbous.
Today my ol' man is another year older...
Here's some of the same useless facts as applied to the day my love entered upon this mortal coil... It is only a hope that we can share a celebratory treat to commemorate his beginnings...
1 October 1969
Your date of conception was on or about 8 January 1969 which was a Wednesday.
You were born on a Wednesday
under the astrological sign Libra.
Your Life path number is 9.
Life Path Compatibility:
You are most compatible with those with the Life Path numbers 3, 6 & 9.
You should get along well with those with the Life Path numbers 1 & 5.
You may or may not get along well with those with the Life Path numbers 2, 7 & 11.
You are least compatible with those with the Life Path numbers 4, 8 & 22.
The Julian calendar date of your birth is 2440495.5.
The golden number for 1969 is 13.
The epact number for 1969 is 11.
The year 1969 was not a leap year.
Your birthday falls into the Chinese year beginning 2/17/1969 and ending 2/5/1970.
You were born in the Chinese year of the Rooster.
Your Native American Zodiac sign is Raven; your plant is Ivy.
You were born in the Egyptian month of Choiach, the fourth month of the season of Poret (Emergence - Fertile soil).
Your date of birth on the Hebrew calendar is 20 Tishri 5730.
The date of Easter on your birth year was Sunday, 6 April 1969.
The date of Orthodox Easter on your birth year was Sunday, 13 April 1969.
The date of Ash Wednesday (the first day of Lent) on your birth year was Wednesday 19 February 1969.
The date of Whitsun (Pentecost Sunday) in the year of your birth was Sunday 25 May 1969.
The date of Whisuntide in the year of your birth was Sunday 1 June 1969.
The date of Rosh Hashanah in the year of your birth was Saturday, 13 September 1969.
The date of Passover in the year of your birth was Thursday, 3 April 1969.
The date of Mardi Gras on your birth year was Tuesday 18 February 1969.
As of 10/2/2006 11:31:03 PM EDT
You are 37 years old.
You are 444 months old.
You are 1,931 weeks old.
You are 13,515 days old.
You are 324,383 hours old.
You are 19,463,011 minutes old.
You are 1,167,780,663 seconds old.
Celebrities who share your birthday:
Jay Underwood (1968)
Mark McGwire (1963)
Randy Quaid (1950)
Rod Carew (1945)
Stella Stevens (1936)
Julie Andrews (1935)
Richard Harris (1932)
George Peppard (1928)
Tom Bosley (1927)
Jimmy Carter (1924)
James Whitmore (1921)
Walter Matthau (1920)
Vladimir Horowitz (1903)
Top songs of 1969
Aquarius/Let the Sun Shine In by Fifth Dimension
In the Year 2525 by Zager & Evans
Get Back by Beatles (with Billy Preston)
Sugar, Sugar by Archies
Honky Tonk Women by Rolling Stones
Everyday People by Sly & the Family Stone
Dizzy by Tommy Roe
Wedding Bell Blues by Fifth Dimension
I Can't Get Next to You by Temptations
Crimson & Clover by Tommy James & the Shondells
Your age is the equivalent of a dog that is 5.28962818003914 years old. (You're still chasing cats!)
There are 364 days till your next birthday
on which your cake will have 38 candles.
Those 38 candles produce 38 BTUs,
or 9,576 calories of heat (that's only 9.5760 food Calories!) .
You can boil 4.34 US ounces of water with that many candles.
In 1969 there were approximately 3.7 million births in the US.
In 1969 the US population was approximately 179,323,175 people, 50.6 persons per square mile.
In 1969 in the US there were approximately 1,800,000 marriages (9.3%) and 479,000 divorces (2.5%)
In 1969 in the US there were approximately 1,712,000 deaths (9.5 per 1000)
In the US a new person is born approximately every 8 seconds.
In the US one person dies approximately every 12 seconds.
In 1969 the population of Australia was approximately 12,407,217.
In 1969 there were approximately 250,175 births in Australia.
In 1969 in Australia there were approximately 112,470 marriages and 10,930 divorces.
In 1969 in Australia there were approximately 106,496 deaths.
Your birthstone is Tourmaline
The Mystical properties of Tourmaline
Pink Tourmaline promotes female balance and protection. Green Toumaline promotes male balance.
Some lists consider these stones to be your birthstone. (Birthstone lists come from Jewelers, Tibet, Ayurvedic Indian medicine, and other sources)
Opal, Jasper
Your birth tree is
Hazelnut Tree, the Extraordinary
Charming, undemanding, very understanding, knows how to make an impression, active fighter for social cause, popular, moody and capricious lover, honest and tolerant partner, precise sense of judgement.
There are 84 days till Christmas 2006!
There are 97 days till Orthodox Christmas!
The moon's phase on the day you were
born was waning gibbous.
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