Today I find myself once again in a funk, a stale mate and calm lull- a solitude, where my mind feels swamped with outside noises and my frame of vision is scattered, as my eyes jump from one bright thing to another- watching the way people interact with one another, listening to the obnoxious loud voices of people instructing each other, but it all seems so... natural. Helping one another sometimes seems like a selfless act, but when I observe the way someone walks through the aisles and glances over each person's shoulders with that air of egotistical interest, it seems so overtly natural as well. What can we do but be distracted and attracted to others? There's almost no easy way to fall into a calm silence and only pay attention to the task at hand, and there I am envious of those who can stay focused - I ought to schedule myself for yoga and meditation, thought processes, and more writing from my heart.
Things are foreboding on me, shoulders are weighed down by my thoughts and choices that are just around the corner, but the one way I can deal is to relax and go with the flow...
Sigh. So melancholy.
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